Passing school. Flunking on people.

Start of my day was surprisingly very different to the cold treatment at home. I was highest in our quiz and I felt that my friends actually wanted me to be there. If only my class was until afternoon, but no, I still need to go home.

Went to gym and felt shitty and ugly.

On the other hand, while I'm passing school, I was doing a horrible job at home.

It hit me. My relationships with people are going downhill. Realized it when I offered biscuits to our helper and she just looked at me and asked "What's that?" and I replied "Biscuits". She looked scared or maybe feels sorry for me, she answered me with a "NO", that actually hurt my pride, I went out of my way and gave her my favorite snacks, I have no choice but to place it on their bed and I just said "That's yours, makes my stomach big", left with a smile.

But when I returned to my room, I feel like crying. Me and my parents aren't talking, me and J... I don't even know what the hell is happening to us, and now our helpers. Great, can't wait to be deaf forever. No one will be talking to me now.

Help?

xo